My best friend is obsessing on this guy he just met. The latter is forcing him to take ecstasy and cocaine, and he feels he has no choice but to give in so he could impress him. While everyone else was worried about the floods over the weekend, they were too busy getting drugged. Now my best friend hates me for being a nagger and a KJ just because I won't stop giving him some serious tongue-lashing for this god damn stupidity. And the poor thing calls me a wimp. How fucking absurd. What is wrong with everyone?!

Current Location: Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf, Eastwood
Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: That I Would Be Good - Alanis Morrisette

It has been 6 weeks since my break up with Rob, and for a while I thought I had moved on. It's probably because I have been seeing this new guy, Kyle for a week now. He's cute, very smart, and a heavy drinker like me. Perfect. But it wasn't until last night, when we first kissed and made love (yeah, I'm slow alright) when I realized that I am far from being okay. Not that he was a bad kisser or the sex itself was bad. The kisses just felt different. In the middle of the act, I was suddenly struggling to get that familiar feeling of Rob's lips... and Kyle could tell. It was awkward. It was embarrassing. I would love to go on and describe the sex itself but that's probably gonna gross everyone out so I'll keep it to myself.

Now I am confused. Rob, the guy who had a habit of cheating on me has been trying to win me back for the past couple of days. Something he's never ever done - so the effort is seriously puzzling me. That maybe this time he's up for something good. While the new guy  Kyle seems like a good catch. I don't know if I should just look ahead and start anew with Kyle OR save what was a tumultuous relationship with Rob.


Why is love so complicated? Why can't it be perfect? :-(

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: crushed
Current Music: Hate Me - Blue October

Okay somebody just told me he wishes I'd die of brain cancer and that he hates me for wasting 2 years of his life. Some people are just mean. He cheats on you many times, you forgive him, then he later on justifies it by telling you that it's your fault for not being good enough to make him faithful.

Thank you very much, you've been a great bottom. Mamatay ka na rin, like asap ha? Cheers.

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Hero - Chad Kroeger

I accompanied my new boy to Fitness First Eastwood last Saturday, as he wanted to sign up so we could work out together. He was given a temporary ID by the receptionist and the thing caught his attention. He thought the guy on the ID was a total hottie and even joked about keeping it so he could stalk him if I screw up. I got curious and checked it out. To my shock, I saw my ex Ralph's (partner for 5 years) ID, dated May 2009. Apparently he recently signed up with Fitness First and lost his card. After minutes of staring in disbelief, I thought yeah, he sure looked damn good - way, way better than the last time I saw him. For some reason that made me sad and I chose not to go on with the work out and went home instead. Man, what is the probability of coming across the ID of the greatest love of your life (seriously!) when there are over 10,000 members and 17 branches?! Heck he does not even live close to Eastwood and hardly works out there. And yeah, why does it suck to see your ex looking really good after your break up? I guess it's because I feel like nothing has changed about me, over 2 years after the break up - except perhaps my seemingly thinning hair. Fuck, yeah? Suddenly I am asking myself if I ever truly got over him. I don't know if I still love the guy or I just hate myself. Either way, it's not good for me.

By the way, I took the ID and kept it in my fucking wallet. How sad is that? Okay rc_myer call me a drama queen now. I so have to hear that.

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: cranky
Current Music: Empty - The Click Five (Okay I promise this is 100% coincidence!)

I was checking the billboard charts earlier when I saw this pleasant surprise. Check out the image.


Yes guys, it's our pambansang keychain, Charice Pempengco, debuting in the top 50 of the Billboard charts. Wow, di na mareach! Hahaha.

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: dorky
Current Music: Lately - Felix Anthony Lim (Naks!)

Scene: (Anto and the New Guy after a hot, amazing sex)



Anto: Hey, I heard you utter "I love you" earlier... Did you mean that? I mean, are you sure you're you're in love with me?

New Guy: PAGKATAPOS KITA I-DEEPTHROAT, YOU WILL QUESTION MY FEELINGS?!

Anto: Oh okay sorry wag ka magalit.








HAHAHAHAHA!

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: naughty
Current Music: Make You Feel My Love - Adele

After a little over 2 years, I am single again. Some people just don't change. Old habits truly die hard I guess. How sad. Oh well. Congratulations to me. Hello world.

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: If You See Kay - The Script

Guys, has anyone of you used products from Holy Land, the Dead Sea stuff? Moisturizers, after-shave, eye cream, body scrub, mud soap, etc? I am thinking of buying their eye cream, salt scrub, and moisturizer. It's a little pricey - ranging from 2,000 to 3,000 pesos per product. So yeah I'd appreciate any feedback. Thanks. :)

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: Vain
Current Music: Breathe - Prodigy

Having witnessed the Eulogy for Charles Manansala, I realized one very important thing: That dying is not so bad after all.

The place was just overflowing with so much love and spirit of friendship that at that very moment, I was wishing I'd die the next day and get at least half the reaction from all the people I care about. It was just love at its purest form. It's indescribable. The whole time I was thinking that if his soul was indeed somewhere in the room, then his happiness was probably at an all time high. Lucky, lucky dude.

Ram rc_myer and Neb Andico facilitated the rites. These two are just the sweetest guys in the world - great friends, really good people. Makes me feel highly privileged that I got the chance to have them as friends. Too bad I never had the opportunity to know Charles as deeply as they did,  but I guess what I've seen was more than enough. It's his whole 26 years of happy life packed in about 2 hours of singing, very heart-warming speeches, and pictures.

But more than knowing his life story itself, I realized that if we stay good, if we learn to value our friends and family, and if we make it a point to tell people we love them when we feel like it, then we really are bound to get all that love in return sooner or later. That life is still and will always be about the basics. The intangibles.

Rest in peace Charles. Thank you for the most solemn 2 hours of my life. God bless you.

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: gloomy
Current Music: Swing, Swing - The All-American Rejects

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Opaline - Dishwalla